morganleee

I've been pretty sick lately, so today I finally went to school. While I was sitting in French everyone was so loud and I couldn't hear anything, in that moment I realized that I really really don't belong in this town, I know when I leave here my life will truly start. Let me explain; I've been slowly drifting away from people, a little while ago I barely hung out with anyone, I decided to stop trying to look good for anyone in this place, I stopped straightening my hair and wearing make-up (Coincidentally, people at school noticed in a negative way calling me 'ugly' and such, so i started wearing make up again but not that much.) I turned to books instead of the comfort of people, I actually didn't party for a little bit either. Now, I've noticed that I really only have three friends at school and a few more outside of school. There's Jillian, my twin soul, I'm glad I have at least one friend that is going through what I'm going through and shares the same views on life. And Matthew, he already knows how I feel about him, so I don't care if he reads this. I met him the day before New Years and on New Years I realized I liked him. Have you ever read in books that people have a sort of 'electric' feeling when they touch a person or get close to them. Well that's how I felt....he doesn't know that. Hahahah oops. Someday he'll read this. But I am eagerly awaiting to see him again, I miss Matthew so much. Any way that is my introduction, not a very good one I suppose, but I will try to continually write in this.